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[awesmazings]

[Anyone who knows Jimmy at all might have noticed that he's been unusually absent from the Network lately. Ignoring new arrivals, and only talking to people sparingly- and it's always, always via text. In fact, Jimmy hasn't made a video post to the Network himself in several months, and it seems like that hasn't changed.

It's jarringly unusual behavior, but the sudden message that pops up on the Network this afternoon might be the most surprising thing of all, even moreso than the radio silence. No attempts at filtering, either.]

What do you think 'Hell' is?

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[awesmazings]

its ok
i think i got the answer i was looking for maybe
its just been a really weird month haha

["weird"]

[awesmazings]

thats pretty different
but after everything ive heard i could believe it

[He'd probably find that really cool if he wasn't in such a state.]

[awesmazings]

haha im gonna try
i guess i just need to try to get my mind off it now that ive talked about it

[diamondo]

well most people always assume it's just fire and torture all the time
so if it wasn't like that then either it's not hell or hell's way nicer than we thought
which is good either way!
i know it's a lot to think about and it's gonna be difficult to move past it
but i think it's best to not worry about it
focus on what you have and what you can do here
enjoy yourself while you're here

[awesmazings]

yeah
i think im going to try to do that
this is a really nice place
and everybody seems really nice
well most everybody
i mean everybody was willing to listen to me anyway
and i really appreciate that coming from anybody

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[angerpoints]

... Yeah. Makes sense.

[...]

Does it really matter what you were like before you ended up in Miseryville, though? I mean, think about it. You're a good person now, right? So why the hell should you let the possibility that you might've been an asshole in the past mess you up? You can't sit around obsessing over shit you've done wrong in the past. Especially when you don't even know if you've done anything wrong in the first place. All you can do is keep moving forward and try to do the right thing in the future.

And as far as why nothing in Miseryville bugs you...

... I dunno. Maybe there isn't anything wrong with you. Maybe you just got balls. It's easy to let a shitty situation get you down. It takes guts to just let it roll over your shoulder and focus on using your strength to help out other people. If you ask me, the fact that you try to make things suck less for people in a place that's supposed to suck more than makes up for any screw-ups you might've made once upon a time.

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[awesmazings]

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so...
me being in Miseryville might be....like
a second chance for me? whether or not i ever really did anything wrong
i like to think im a good person, yeah
i try to do everything i can to do right by people no matter what
and i know i mess stuff up sometimes and im clumsy and im not the smartest guy around
but i dont go around trying to make peoples' lives miserable either

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[ajustcaws]

well... i don't want to die and then come back as some kind of horrible shambling corpse reanimated by fell magykkks!! i mean that would be the WORST.

but other than that, nah, not really!!

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[angerpoints]

If you wanna think about it that way, then yeah, sure. It's better to look at it from that perspective than it is to just sit around getting your panties in a knot over whether or not being there makes you bad, right?

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[awesmazings]

haha yeah, i guesso
my names Jimmy by the way
i dumped all that on you and i dont think i even know your name
...thanks for talking to me though

[red_roses]

I'm sorry....I....don't like to remember it much so I...might have....gotten something wrong....

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[lieutenantantichrist]

[Now, of all the reasons Blake expected to hear for being curious about Hell, "I'm from there" was nowhere on the list.]

You're saying you lived in Hell.

What the fuck did you do?

[throw_stone]

It is. If not, would it not be easier to simply sin, knowing there is no punishment?

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[awesmazings]

[...you'll have to give him a moment, Blake, because the bluntness of that kindof threw him a bit.]

i dont know

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[awesmazings]

yeah....i...i guess that would be pretty bad

[He's pretty sure Miseryville doesn't have corpses or zombies...ghosts though, yes.]

[awesmazings]

no its ok, dont apologize
thank you for telling me what you know about it
it helps a lot

[awesmazings]

i guess
but
do you think its different if you cant remember if youve done anything bad or not?

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[angerpoints]

Name's Yusuke. And don't worry about it. Just do me a favor and try not to let this crap get you down.

[You punch those feelings of uncertainty right in the face, Jimmy. RIGHT IN THE FACE.]

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[awesmazings]

[HE'LL DO HIS BEST.]

Don't worry Yusuke. i will.

[red_roses]

W-Well, at least I was helpful....

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[lieutenantantichrist]

How do you not know? You don't remember being alive?

[rarestcandy]

you wanna know what would really help getting your mind off it?

[awesmazings]

you were
thank you

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[awesmazings]

i dont remember anything really before Miseryville, no
just a couple things, but its not much

[awesmazings]

sure. what?