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[awesmazings]

[Anyone who knows Jimmy at all might have noticed that he's been unusually absent from the Network lately. Ignoring new arrivals, and only talking to people sparingly- and it's always, always via text. In fact, Jimmy hasn't made a video post to the Network himself in several months, and it seems like that hasn't changed.

It's jarringly unusual behavior, but the sudden message that pops up on the Network this afternoon might be the most surprising thing of all, even moreso than the radio silence. No attempts at filtering, either.]

What do you think 'Hell' is?

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[awesmazings]

[He's glad you gave him the benefit of the doubt, at least.]

well no.
i like my home.

but its not so much my home im worried about.
its that if my home is hell
and im there
...

why am I there?

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[stitchedupbodyguard]

Have you ever done anything terrible? Like, traffic humans or something.

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[scratchitti]

[...shit, he didn't mean to get this invested]

neku

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[awesmazings]

...see i
ive never heard about Hell before i came here
so having people tell me that...

i guess
my home is supposed to be like that
its....it scared me.
i still dont know what to do or think about it.
whether or not its real, im living in it right now.
or
some...version of it.

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[angerpoints]

As far as I know, Hell's one of the places you go after you die if you were an asshole when you were alive. It's supposed to be all fire and brimstone and whatever, but I dunno if that's true or not. I've never been there.

[That's supposed to be a joke. Kind of.]

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[awesmazings]

not...in miseryville.
but otherwise i cant remember if i have.

[me_first]

do you want to talk about it or something?

[How does comfort.]

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[ossifragant]

Has it always been your home? Do you remember a time before it?

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[awesmazings]

[TOO LATE.]

thank you for answering, neku

i dont know how much it gonna help, but.

...thank you anyway.

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[awesmazings]

thats what a lot of people seem to think it is.

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[scratchitti]

like I said, not gonna ruin my day either way.

[oh really neku, oh really]

[awesmazings]

ive been trying to, honestly

like i thought this post would help but

its just kinda making it worse, aha ha

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[soundmind]

Hell is in your head.

It's all the insecurities you have, lying in wait to pounce and stop you in your tracks.

It's contemplating life without your friends.

It's *being* without your friends.

Other people wouldn't understand your own version of hell, or say that it's some *place* people go after they die if they've been bad, but they've certainly got their own. Everyone does, whether they admit it or not.

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[awesmazings]

its always been my home, yeah.

i dont remember anything else, really...like.

i do remember snow. thats one thing i remember that nobody back home knew about.

thats why im pretty sure i didnt always live there. even though i cant remember.

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[voidedrogue]

i think the answer may be obvious jims

like there are two things we know about hell
based on the stories
1 it is bad
2 bad people go there

and if weve disproved 1
then that means we can disprove 2

and even if we cant then well
who knows what rules you gotta follow to be sorted naughty or nice lbr
but i legit cannot fathom the idea that you are anything other than 100% good by any standards that count
maybe its just
backwards

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[exeggutorhead]

and if it's true that you were? what then?

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[awesmazings]

yeah, i guess not

still though. gives me a different way to think about it, i guess

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[ossifragant]

I remember things, too. Vague. Horses on a ranch. A little boy.

But it feels like it happened to someone else.

Just because you're there doesn't mean you did anything wrong at all.

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[awesmazings]

whether or not it's a place, or in your head.

Hell is the same as everything terrible in the world. all the terrible things that can happen to a person.

right?

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[soundmind]

Yeah, but I'd say the worst part is suffering it without your friends to make it better.

[pipers_son]

no one actually knows what hell is like jimmy
theyre just parroting whats been written by old dead people
wnat to know one of the reasons you can end up in hell?? you dont worship the same god as they do
its a bunch of crock

[And then suddenly, in the room itself-]

Now is this what's been buggin' ya for the whole month?

[Joker leans against the doorway, Eliza at his feet with her trunk sniffing in the air curiously.]

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[awesmazings]

maybe
but i mean i really dont
know

because i cant remember anything before where i live.
i mean it's called Miseryville.
its supposed to be a terrible, awful, miserable place.
but i like it.

...

maybe that means im a bad person for liking it.

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[awesmazings]

i dont know. i really dont know.

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[angerpoints]

Yeah, well, that's what it is back where I'm from. Like I said, though, I've never been. The only thing I can tell you about it for sure is that you gotta screw up pretty badly to get sent there.

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[awesmazings]

if i didnt do anything wrong

why am i living in such a supposedly terrible place?