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[Anyone who knows Jimmy at all might have noticed that he's been unusually absent from the Network lately. Ignoring new arrivals, and only talking to people sparingly- and it's always, always via text. In fact, Jimmy hasn't made a video post to the Network himself in several months, and it seems like that hasn't changed.

It's jarringly unusual behavior, but the sudden message that pops up on the Network this afternoon might be the most surprising thing of all, even moreso than the radio silence. No attempts at filtering, either.]

What do you think 'Hell' is?

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I don't remember it, but that's because my memories are gone. Everyone else in the Game does though.

So how can you be sure you're actually dead, then?

You believe what they told you?

Well it's that or I became invisible to other 'not-dead' people for some other reason. Yeah it's possible.

Though hell I seem to be alive HERE so who knows?

Why are you asking? About hell I mean?

I just need to know what other people think, that's all.

No one asks questions like this for no reason. Don't bullshit.

[W o w excuse you.]

yeah well

I never said I didn't have a reason.

it's none of your business, too.

No, you made it the business of the internet at large by asking.

Look, that's the one good thing about this kinda thing. You can rant and bitch and get ideas from people that don't know you and probably don't really care about your delicate feelings and will tell you what they honestly think, unlike face-to-face. So you can either keep not telling because you don't wanna worry other people about it, OR you can spill it to me or someone else. because trust me, you won't ruin my day either way.

[Dang, now he's wondering if it would have been a better idea to make this anonymous.

Then again, he doesn't know this kid either. He must have shown up recently.]

I already told you. I need to know if other people think it exists, and what they think it is.

[Yes, but that doesn't tell him why, does it Jimmy?]

...besides, you don't think Hell is what I thought you'd say anyway. You think it's some kind of game. You wouldn't understand what I'm talking about if I did tell you.

Well what people THINK it is doesn't mean anything since I doubt most people have seen it and come back. And even though my death or not death didn't follow that I DO still know what classic Christian hell is.

[There's a pause after his response, but before Jimmy can respond:]

Though if you NEED to know, that makes me think you need proof of something, right?

What, think you're heading there?

[And, suddenly, this conversation is locked.]

i think i live there.

You don't KNOW?

i didnt know what Hell was when i got here

i just told you that

i still barely know what it is

thats whyim asking

im really confused and trying to figure this out and im not getting a single straight answer from anybody but its all mostly the same

terrible place where terrible people go when they die and are made miserable for all eternity because they were such terrible people

right. is that right

That's the idea, though it's different in other cultures. Like, in Shinto everyone goes to the same place regardless of how they lived.

So basically you think you're dead and being punished. But if I remember right if you were being punished you'd know why, otherwise it's not punishment for the sins you committed. You can't repent if you don't know what you did, basically.

Edited (CAN'T repent jess, not CAN that's a big typo) 2014-08-29 00:21 (UTC)

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i guesso. i dont really know.

i cant...i cant remember. i cant remember anything.

[It's terrifying all of a sudden, not knowing. All his life he didn't know he might have had something to remember.]

Well youre not alone on that. I don't remember jack before I 'died' either.

The important question is: were you being punished? Were you being poked with forks or whatever it is demons do?

well

the ruler of my town's job is to make everyone miserable all the time

thats what he does

so i dont know

were you? Miserable?

...

no. i mean.

sometimes id have a bad day but

i guess everybody does.

but i wasnt miserable. i was happy living there.

i like it here, but i miss home too.

hell is what you make it. just like life. don't worry about it.

[...]

dont

worry about it?

Everything you're worried about is hearsay. MAYBE it's hell. MAYBE you're dead.

Or maybe you're thinking too hard. youre not being punished, you're happy in this Miseryville. I mean I KNOW I forgot stuff but you don't even know if you had a life before that or not. What does finding out get you anyways? If you're happy screw the details.

you dont come off like an asshole, so stop telling yourself you must HAVE been, it doesn't matter NOW

i never thought about it that way.

...

what's your name? ..im jimmy.

[...shit, he didn't mean to get this invested]

neku

[TOO LATE.]

thank you for answering, neku

i dont know how much it gonna help, but.

...thank you anyway.

like I said, not gonna ruin my day either way.

[oh really neku, oh really]

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