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[awesmazings]

[Anyone who knows Jimmy at all might have noticed that he's been unusually absent from the Network lately. Ignoring new arrivals, and only talking to people sparingly- and it's always, always via text. In fact, Jimmy hasn't made a video post to the Network himself in several months, and it seems like that hasn't changed.

It's jarringly unusual behavior, but the sudden message that pops up on the Network this afternoon might be the most surprising thing of all, even moreso than the radio silence. No attempts at filtering, either.]

What do you think 'Hell' is?

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[awesmazings]

[Jimmy listens to Joker's story quietly, and by the end of it there are tears falling down his cheeks again, though he can't exactly tell what's causing them now.]

...I'm glad.

[A small smile flickers onto his expression for just a moment before he speaks again.]

I....I t-talked to somebody, the other day. ...I don't think they....k-knew, or meant anything by it...but they made the connection. Between...Hell and Miseryville. G-got me....worrying about it, again.

[He shifts slightly, turning his face a bit more into Joker's shoulder.]

B-but they...weren't the first. I just really started....thinking about it.

L-like I...it's not so much...living in Hell that scares me. It's...the thought that I....died....and ended up in Hell because...

[His breath catches slightly before he can continue.]

....because I did something really bad. ...I-I just can't remember. A-and I...it's....s-scary. I could've really....

[Jimmy falls quiet there finally, his words starting to blur together as he loses track of his point entirely.]

[pipers_son]

Like I said before- no one and their mother can agree on the exact reasons ya go ta hell. For all we know, it's about as random as the reason why you and me are here in Johto.

[He ruffles Jimmy's hair as Eliza sniffs her way over at long last and plops down at their feet.]

If ya didn't do somethin' bad, then that's fine. If ya did, then that's all the more reason ta be good and happy here, right? We get second chances... so we can do somethin'. Maybe so we can make other folks happier along with ourselves. Make up for what we've done.

[He sounds a bit out of it as he says that before snapping out of it.]

But that's if ya did anythin' bad. Lad like yerself? I doubt that's the reason.

[awesmazings]

[Jimmy smiles weakly when Joker ruffles his hair, letting out a slow sigh.]

Mmm...y-yeah. I...I guess you're right...

S-so...even if I did....do something. ...y-you still think I'm...a good person?

[pipers_son]

'Course! Doin' a bad thing or five doesn't mean yer bad overall!

Folks who tell ya that are daft.

[awesmazings]

[Jimmy lets his eyes fall closed again for a minute.]

I just...wonder. ...what I was like, before.

I-I hope I was nice. I can't imagine...anything else.

[pipers_son]

If yer nice and ya can't even remember what it was like before, pretty sure that means ya definitely always were.

[There's another hair ruffle before Joker ruffles in his pockets to pull out a handkerchief.]

C'mon now. Dry yer eyes.

[awesmazings]

[Jimmy takes the handkerchief from Joker, smiling a bit more when Leader pushes his head beneath his arm and works his head into Jimmy's lap.]

...I'm s-sorry I didn't...say anything before. I just didn't know...what to say.

[pipers_son]

Just say somethin' is botherin' ya until ya do. I won't pry further until then.

Now what do ya say we leave this whole depressin' mess behind us and end the night well, eh?

[awesmazings]

[He nods, finally fully detaching himself from Joker's side, running his hand over the top of Leader's head.]

Yeah. Sounds like a good idea to me.

[pipers_son]

Then let's go ta the buffet that's down town!

[Because nothing says "fuck existential problems" like stuffing your face until the staff threaten to throw you out.]

[awesmazings]

[TRUE THAT.]

O-okay!

[If nothing else, though Jimmy's eyes are red and he looks like he's recently been through Hell and back, there's a smile on his face that hasn't been there for two weeks.

With any luck, nothing else undue will happen to make it go away again any time soon.]