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[awesmazings]

[Anyone who knows Jimmy at all might have noticed that he's been unusually absent from the Network lately. Ignoring new arrivals, and only talking to people sparingly- and it's always, always via text. In fact, Jimmy hasn't made a video post to the Network himself in several months, and it seems like that hasn't changed.

It's jarringly unusual behavior, but the sudden message that pops up on the Network this afternoon might be the most surprising thing of all, even moreso than the radio silence. No attempts at filtering, either.]

What do you think 'Hell' is?

Comments

[ardent]

"Tabula rasa" is a philosophical theory regarding humanity's natural state of being. It poses that we are neither inherently good nor inherently evil when we're born; at our core, we're a blank slate, and how we choose to act from there is dependent on a number of factors, like memories and experiences that we gain as we grow older.

If you take all of those memories and experiences away, then you'll logically have a person's natural state of being - what they are then is what they would naturally just...be, if that makes any sense.

If you don't remember anything before Miseryville, then you would be in a state of tabula rasa now, I think. What you are now isn't fake, but rather it's the opposite - it's what you're meant to be.

[awesmazings]

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so youre saying
no matter what kind of person i might have been before
and if everything ive been told is true
meaning that ive...died
and ended up in Hell- Miseryville- because of it
the kind of person I am now

that's who i am
i could've just as easily been in Miseryville and just
was the worst person in the world, yeah?
but im not
i mean i know im not perfect or anything
but im not terrible either
at least not as terrible as some things ive seen i guess

[ardent]

Yes. I don't think you're a terrible person, either, and I think that's how things are supposed to be. If you really don't remember anything, then you don't have your past to shape you - you just have what you are now, and logically speaking that's what you actually are underneath everything else.

I don't know if you've died or what you did, if you did anything at all. But I don't think who you are now is fake, either. And for what it's worth, I like who you are.

[awesmazings]

thank you. that means a lot
i really appreciate it
maybe the fact that im so worried about it at all means i could never have been all that bad
and i dont think who i am now is probably going to be changing much any time soon

[ardent]

I'm glad to hear that!

And I'm glad this is helping you, too. I'm not always the best at it, but you can always send me a message or something if you want to talk.

[awesmazings]

i knew i wanted to talk about it for a little while
actually no, a while
like a couple months
but i didnt start thinking about it again until a few weeks ago, and right now im actually talking about it
im still not really sure what to think exactly but its not as bad as it was before, i dont think
whether or not youre the best at it, its nice to know somebodys listening
i just have to try to not talk too much, haha